Brighter and better....

I have come here a few times since my last post and started to write but then never posted anything so I figured it was time.

My heart is still broken but on its way to mending...
I finally got some closure from M...A nasty email that hurt so much I wasn't sure if I was going to make it through all of this, but I have and am starting to feel better each day. I still have some bad days but I think thats normal and sooner or later there will be fewer.

I have packed up his room which was very difficult for me but I knew it needed to be done. I still go in there from time to time on days that are really bad and I feel like I need to be with him...But I do try to stay out of there since it is a very painful place for me.

We have started talking about other options to staring a family....IVF again or egg donor and maybe one day adoption again.
I'm not 100% sure which way we will go but I do know that we are working through this together and no matter what we have each other.

Things are looking brighter and better every day...